demons in my orbit - Guardin.mp3

[00:00.11]They keep telling me to love myself
[00:04.98]How the **** do you love yourself
[00:07.67]You don't, you don't even know
[00:09.55]Who the **** you are anymore?
[00:13.42]Like you feel like you're reaching your breaking point
[00:16.02]Every ******* day and it's just...
[00:20.03]It's hard, man
[00:21.79]They don't wanna talk
[00:22.96]They don't wanna feel
[00:24.17]The voices in my head saying
[00:25.84]I don't think I'm real
[00:27.02]They don't wanna talk
[00:28.56]They don't wanna feel
[00:29.80]The voices in my head saying
[00:31.06]I don't think I'm
[00:32.11]They don't wanna talk
[00:33.80]They don't wanna feel
[00:35.12]The voices in my head saying
[00:36.51]I don't think I'm real
[00:37.79]I don't think I'm real
[00:39.11]I don't think I'm real
[00:40.46]I don't think I'm real
[00:41.73]I don't think I'm
[00:43.09]I don't know where my heads been at
[00:44.60]And I've been feeling like a nuisance just because of that
[00:47.16]It's like a headache but the funny thing about it's that
[00:50.14]The pain won't go away till my brain go splat
[00:52.90]And I've been trying to decode myself, figure my shit out
[00:56.06]Get a better grip and spark the spliff that's in my mouth
[00:58.71]I can't cope without the **** and time's just runnin' out
[01:01.26]Losin' my patience, I'm vacant, a hollow body now
[01:03.77]I'm finding other ways to try to cope with all the pain
[01:06.53]And if I'm being honest with you, baby I am not okay
[01:09.08]The ******* voice inside my head is driving me insane
[01:11.39]And silence kills me, lately it just hasn't been the same
[01:14.29]Lost in my head, lost in my mind
[01:16.93]Telling myself that I'll be just fine
[01:19.55]Nothing's okay, nothing's alright
[01:22.30]Smoking all day, crying all night
[01:25.22]And what the **** you expect from the kid
[01:27.46]I got demons in my orbit that I'm tryin' to rid
[01:30.11]Of all the shit that I deal with, I act on a whim
[01:32.76]I'm like a fish outta water trying to swim
[01:35.27]Bedroom dweller, I'm feelin' so ******* stellar
[01:38.17]When I empty my clip into the chest of the teller
[01:40.71]Killed the man inside of me that's been lane switchin' better
[01:43.36]Grab the 9, grip the trigger, this my suicide letter
[01:51.11]They don't wanna talk
[01:52.53]They don't wanna feel
[01:53.65]The voices in my head saying
[01:55.20]I don't think I'm real
[01:56.52]They don't wanna talk
[01:57.84]They don't wanna feel
[01:59.11]The voices in my head saying
[02:00.53]I don't think I'm
[02:01.91]They don't wanna talk
[02:03.20]They don't wanna feel
[02:04.42]The voices in my head saying
[02:05.89]I don't think I'm real
[02:07.11]I don't think I'm real
[02:08.38]I don't think I'm real
[02:09.80]I don't think I'm real
[02:11.18]I don't think I'm