Sinner Pt. 4 - Phora.mp3

[00:00.000] I write this song as this gun is in my hand loaded
[00:13.639] Tears rolling down my face, feel so damn hopeless
[00:16.316] Wonder would my mom miss me? Would my dad notice?
[00:19.104] 'Cause this pressure's getting heavy and I can't hold it
[00:21.674] No faith in people's loyalty, they damn motives
[00:24.367] So I bottle all my issues 'til I drown choking
[00:27.198] Lord, I know it's been a while since we've last spoken
[00:29.667] I just hope that You forgive me for the path chosen
[00:32.526] All this pain inside my heart, I had the drugs numb it
[00:35.418] Rather die by my own hands and run from it
[00:37.825] In the shadows, now the snakes are moving all around
[00:40.497] Gave 'em all my love to find out nothing really comes from it (Comes from it)
[00:43.298] I see I'm the villain they painted
[00:45.961] I try to understand why they hurtin', they hatin' me
[00:48.730] "The good die young," now that's a hell of a statement
[00:51.357] Because the sinner does too, how the **** can you play me?
[00:54.104] Look, if I look inside the mirror, I'm an empty shell
[00:56.722] 'Cause my soul been broken if you couldn't tell
[00:59.673] All the ones I gave my love left me dyin'
[01:02.289] Abandoned, feelin' cold, if you look closely, it's really Hell
[01:05.055] Every time I close my eyes, I see my death
[01:07.434] A bullet to the head or a rope around my neck
[01:10.407] Or maybe it's the way that I've been treated, world is evil
[01:13.053] All those traumas cuttin' deep like a knife inside my chest
[01:15.850] But you wouldn't understand if I explained it to you
[01:19.139] You couldn't see the picture that I painted for you
[01:21.820] My blood is in these brush strokes, truly
[01:24.018] All these trust issues from the way these people use me
[01:26.587] I hear the Devil dancin' in my mind now
[01:29.462] My heart's empty and I don't know how to cry now
[01:32.257] They'll never know what I feel inside
[01:35.156] There's nowhere for me to hide
[01:36.315] And I'm just not scared to die now
[01:38.485] Still see the pain in my eyes, but sometimes I don't feel alive, yeah
[01:46.404] And now the tears don't fall 'cause the sinners don't cry (Sinners don't cry)
[01:49.976] Still see the pain in my eyes, but sometimes I don't feel alive, yeah
[01:55.390] And now the tears don't fall 'cause the sinners don't cry (Sinners don't cry)
[02:00.519] (Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh)
[02:08.926] And now the tears don't fall 'cause the sinners don't cry (Sinners don't cry)
[02:12.114] (Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh)
[02:18.553] And now the tears don't fall 'cause the sinners don't cry
[02:21.530] Yeah, trust get you killed, love get you hurt
[02:24.659] Bein' real get you hated, tell me what it's worth
[02:27.497] Pain in my heart, blood on my shirt
[02:29.917] When it comes to suffering, I've been through the worst
[02:32.848] I haven't seen me in the mirror in like five years
[02:35.362] Maybe it's just 'cause I'm scared of facin' my fears
[02:38.008] And people say they love me, but it's quite clear
[02:41.286] I feel more loved from the people in my nightmares
[02:43.585] Sick of bein' frowned on, sick of bein' used
[02:46.260] Sick of bein' stepped on, sick of tryna prove
[02:48.695] Prove I'm good enough, but I just never am to you
[02:51.241] I was born with nothing, tell me, how much can I lose?
[02:53.937] And if you really wanna know me, I'll tell you the truth
[02:56.805] I'm a sinner who turned cold from the pain in his youth
[02:59.665] But my childhood trauma is not an excuse
[03:02.290] For this alcohol and all of these drugs I abuse
[03:04.937] The worst part is I don't even feel numb
[03:07.376] The person that I am is who you fear that I've become
[03:10.281] Taste the Devil on her lips and the liquor on her tongue
[03:12.400] Every time I start to feel okay is when I run
[03:15.944] And life isn't reality 'til you're alone
[03:18.520] In a dark room askin' why nowhere is home
[03:21.387] You called, but I ain't have the heart to pick up the phone
[03:24.051] The aunts are cryin', tellin' you that I'm already gone
[03:27.193] I'm tired of waitin' and searchin' for the sun
[03:29.428] Why should I keep hopin' when it's never gonna come?
[03:32.251] It's been midnight my whole life, be morning when it's done
[03:34.550] I stopped believin' in myself and put my faith into this gun
[03:37.541] And I'll never really know if I could trust again
[03:40.493] Might be easier for me to take my life instead
[03:43.273] So I cock back this gun and point it to my head
[03:45.772] Pull the trigger quick and hope one day I'll get to try again
[03:48.772] (Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh)
[03:57.830] Tears don't fall 'cause the sinners don't cry
[04:00.908] Still see the pain in my eyes
[04:03.523] But sometimes I don't feel alive, yeah
[04:06.073] And now the tears don't fall 'cause the sinners don't cry (Sinners don't cry)
[04:12.055] (Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh)
[04:18.692] And now the tears don't fall 'cause the sinners don't cry (Sinners don't cry)
[04:23.337] (Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh)
[04:28.930] And now the tears don't fall 'cause the sinners don't cry (Sinners don't cry)
[04:33.262] (Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh)