Belief - Mount Eerie/Julie Doiron.mp3

[00:21.33]Through all of my life
[00:24.54]I waver back and forth between
[00:27.39]A belief and not
[00:31.60]Believing in anything
[00:35.25]In any solid shape
[00:42.32]The unfettered mind
[00:47.53]A deeper understanding that holds nothing
[00:53.34]That let's sounds come in the ear
[00:56.05]And just pass through without deciding what it was
[01:01.55]If it was a jet or a dragon
[01:09.91]It was merely a sound without a name or a picture
[01:15.21]It was every possible thing at once
[01:25.51]
[01:26.01]I barely ever get to be in this state
[01:29.51]Just quick flashes by surprise
[01:32.69]When I'm like standing by a car
[01:34.54]Squinting my eyes
[01:36.29]Caught off guard and unpicturesque
[01:46.11]I used to sing this one song all the time
[01:50.12]That I made up to try to cut through
[01:54.16]When I'd find myself caught up
[01:56.76]Entranced in certainty
[02:00.87]Staring at a hill
[02:05.87]And it went:
[02:06.97]"Let's get out of the romance"
[02:10.62]Over and over
[02:12.17]"Let's get out of the romance"
[02:14.97]"Please can I go through this life unscared to see that nothing stays the same"
[02:21.62]"No one knows anything."
[02:26.67]
[02:29.57]When I was younger and didn't know
[02:34.67]I used to walk around basically begging the sky
[02:39.87]For some calamity to challenge my foundation
[02:47.63]When I was young
[02:50.23]So imagine what it was like to watch up close a loved one die
[02:55.83]And then look into the pit
[02:59.09]I lived on the edge of it
[03:01.34]And had to stay there
[03:10.29]Joanne Kyger said:
[03:13.14]"We fight incredibly through a hideous mishmash of inheritance
[03:22.25]Forgiving for deeper stamina
[03:27.22]That we go on
[03:33.37]The world always goes on
[03:37.88]Breaking us with its changes
[03:43.73]Until our form, exhausted, runs true."
[04:04.42]
[04:41.37]Out of nowhere love returned
[04:45.98]I saw what looked like a God who walks among us
[04:50.38]I met her, we fell so in love
[04:53.78]She is angelic, miraculous, I totally lost my mind
[04:59.08]And poured everything into this sea, this ocean
[05:05.08]And when I came to I saw my face in a store window's reflection
[05:11.33]And there was fear behind those eyes
[05:15.33]Now I'm back where I was when I was 20
[05:21.13]Trying to stop clinging to a dream
[05:24.18]And let an old idea of love dissipate
[05:27.33]Back into formless rolling waves
[05:29.73]Of discomfort and uncertainty
[05:35.29]The true state of all things
[05:39.79]I want to wade out into dark water
[05:44.54]Hand in hand with you
[05:51.94]I played this song for you and all you heard were the words
[05:56.84]"Discomfort and uncertainty"
[05:59.99]You asked "How do we get back to how it was?"
[06:04.14]And that's when I started to know
[06:09.44]That I might be in it alone
[06:14.30]Devoted to an unknown
[06:19.70]Homelessness enthroned
[06:24.10]Us and the kids all wind-blown
[06:29.45]Courageous as bone
[06:34.10]Lying down in a storm
[06:39.30]Steadfast, newborn
[06:44.85]A house with no door
[06:50.05]Exhausted form
[06:55.76]In your eyes I found home
[07:01.39]I believed you and dove
[07:06.39]And oh my God
[07:08.64]When we swam together for a little bit