Now Only - Mount Eerie.mp3

[00:11.900]I remember looking around a hospital waiting room
[00:17.380]Full of people all absorbed in their own personal catastrophes
[00:24.190]All reading books like Being Mortal all with a look in their eyes
[00:33.090]And I remember still feeling like no no one can understand
[00:42.550]No my devastation is unique
[00:48.580]But people get cancer and die
[00:52.750]People get hit by trucks and die
[00:57.800]People just living their lives
[01:00.440]Get erased for no reason
[01:02.520]With the rest of us watching from the side
[01:06.360]And some people have to survive
[01:10.190]And find a way to feel lucky to still be alive
[01:16.350]To sleep through the night
[01:21.200]I wrote down all the details of how my house fell apart
[01:29.890]How the person I loved got killed by a bad disease
[01:33.950]Out of nowhere for no reason and me living in the blast zone
[01:39.030]With our daughter and etcetera
[01:42.110]I made these songs
[01:44.010]And the next thing I knew I was standing in the dirt
[01:47.670]Under the desert sky at night outside phoenix
[01:52.760]At a music festival that had paid to fly me in
[01:56.190]To play death songs to a bunch of young people on drugs
[02:01.240]Standing in the dust next to an idling bus
[02:05.100]With Skrillex inside and the sound of subwoofers in the distance
[02:10.210]I had stayed up 'til three
[02:12.110]Talking to Weyes Blood and Father John Misty
[02:15.360]About songwriting in the backstage bungalows
[02:19.400]Eating fruit and jumping on the bed like lost children
[02:23.930]Exploding across the earth in a self-indulgent all consuming
[02:29.130]Wreck of ideas that blot out the stars
[02:34.060]To be still alive felt so absurd
[02:39.810]People get cancer and die
[02:43.780]People get hit by trucks and die
[02:48.780]People just living their lives get erased for no reason
[02:53.330]With the rest of us averting our eyes
[03:11.390]When I was leaning on Skrillex's tour bus waiting
[03:15.180]For the hotel shuttle in the middle of the night
[03:20.770]I barely knew who I was
[03:23.890]I looked up and saw Orion wielding a club and a shield
[03:30.460]And there you were again
[03:33.750]Majestic dead wife
[03:41.560]As my grief becomes calcified frozen in stories
[03:47.510]And in these songs I keep singing numbing it down
[03:53.210]The unsinkable real memories of you
[03:58.410]And the feral eruptions of sobbing
[04:05.650]These waves hit less frequently
[04:12.810]They thin and then they are gone
[04:20.020]You are gone and then your echo is gone
[04:26.420]And then the crying is gone
[04:32.760]And what is left but this merchandise
[04:53.960]This is what my life feels like now
[05:01.290]Like I got abruptly dropped off by the side of the road
[05:05.560]In the middle of a long horrible ride
[05:09.240]In a hot van that was too full of confident chattering dudes
[05:18.000]And the sound of tires receding
[05:29.680]Taking in the night air I say
[05:40.420]Now only